all i feel is the ground
the night is young,
but the moon is high
so there ain't no time,
to say goodbye -
cause i know that i'm leaving in an hour or two
and i'm fine with myself are you fine with you?

how come every time i look back i wanna come home
although though everything i love has never been known

wasting away,
but no one knows
where i came from and where i'll go
i don't care about your lies,
it's not a matter of trust
just one look into your eyes and i'm turned straight to dust

how come every time i get up i want to lay down
i can't tell what the point is,
all i feel is the ground.

a song, maybe

Famous last words
my last words huh?
well that's a whole lot to ponder. i suppose i would choose different things at different times. i wouldn't necessarily call my self a nihilist/pessimist by any means, but with the way the word is going and with the cards i've been dealt lately, if i were about to die right now, i would probably just say: "fuck me". and then lay down eternally.

but gimme a break, do you really think youd have enough time to think about your last words before you die haha
in all reality it'd probably be a jumble of "oh fuck" and "please no"

-til next time,

Writer's Block: Instant attraction
Do you think romantic chemistry is instant or evolving? Have you ever given someone a second (or third) chance and lived to regret it? Have you ever fallen in love with someone you didn't particularly like or desire at first?

in my personal opinion, i feel that there is no such thing as love at first sight. i think that it is something that has to be worked at no matter how strong the first connection/impression may be. an instant connection is something great but a far stretch from love.

which brings me to the next point. if you feel that you have found the love of your life within the first week or so of meeting, how would you know if the person will be faithful or even sane?

in my own experiences i've been in many relationships that have ended with my partner being unfaithful. i personally have never cheated or committed any form of infidelity. recently my last significant other has cheated on me with some friends. obviously it was very painful but after a while of sweet talking on her part i gave her a second chance. the only problem is that the whole situation is lodged in the back of my mind and i can't get over it as hard as i try. needless to say i feel i'm making a mistake.

so when it comes down to the original dilemma, i don't think that second chances are the way to go. i can look at myself and my situation from a third person view and see that i'm making a big mistake, but, and the but is in bold because love is a tricky thing, and i don't know if i'll every truly understand or make the right decision.

the end...for now.


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